Spring Break Day 2

We got up this morning and had a complimentary breakfast at the Paris. Then mom had to get Starbucks, so we walked all over the world and finally got her coffee. After that she wanted to make sure that I saw the ceiling in the Bellagio and so we walked over there. I discovered that I much prefer the Bellagio to the Paris, because it much more classy and much less noisy.

When we arrived back at the Paris, we got our stuff together and departed just after 11am. We had a five hour drive to Jeffrey's house. My mom made me pull out the guide book and put down things that I really wanted to do. After I did that I crashed again (I think I am suffering for residual tiredness from the past month and a half). I fell asleep for a little while. When we arrived at Jeffrey's house, we sat outside for a while and talked about life. It was nice and sunny and enjoyable. I also met his cats Prince Rupert, Cujo, Pandora and The Great and Powerful Oz. They are very sweet and not allowed outside. Then we went to dinner at a restaurant in Carpenteria called Sly's. It was really good. I had steak. Then we came home and talked some more, before I left to come in here and go to bed. night night.

Spring Break Day 1

Today we got up really early, but it was snowing (over a foot), so we waited for it to clear up. This was good for many reasons, one being that I had gotten two hours of sleep the night before and so I was moving rather slowly (Damn you , adderall). I finished my laundry and packed. We got on the road around 11:30am. It was good fun. We listened to the radio, specifially 90's on 9 and talked a lot. My mom also made me read A Tale of Two Cities to her (my spring break English homework). It was a fun drive.

Then we arrived in Vegas. We are going to Los Angeles, but we stopped overnight in Vegas. I have only been to Vegas once before and I was very young and I didn't stay long. It was tonight that I discovered I don't like Vegas. It seemed to me to be all the bad things about Disney World with none of the good things. Plus drugs and alcohol and tons of stupidity. I don't think I have ever seen so much tacky in one place. And all the hotels that were pretending to be places in Europe are sad imitations of the real thing. We walked along the strip and I got really frustrated and I just wanted to go back the hotel. But mom wanted to keep walking and so we did and I got progressively more crabby. We came back to the hotel and are now going to bed. I am so tired.

I can't focus!!

I am having a very hard time focusing. I have been having a time of it for a while, but now it is particularly bad. I can't focus at all. I am not focusing during class or at home on anything. I am constantly multitasking and not paying my full attention to anything. I was history trying to write about Fidel Castro and I kept thinking about Buffy it was absolutely random and frickin' annoying. I mean I was trying to focus and I couldn't remember what I was trying to write. At one point I changed subjects three times in a sentence. I haven't even been able to focus on things that I like, DVDs for example. When I am trying to watch movies, I start thinking about school and my friends and stuff and everything makes me think of fanfiction.

I don't know what to do. I need to focus, I have stuff that I need to do in the next two days and I can't focus on any of it. I think I might need to go back on Adderall. But the problem is that I hate the way I feel on adderall. I have a hard time multitasking, and I act like a caffeine junkie. I don't like, but I get stuff done and right now I am completely out of control. I need to do something. I am not going to flunk out of high school, because I can't focus. I have to start going to bed early enough, so that I can get up in time to eat breakfast. It also might help to drink more water. I feel like my brain has hit capacity and now things are spilling out of the filing cabinets where I put them.

I CAN'T FOCUS AND I NEED TO SO BADLY. I HAVE STUFF TO DO. I NEED HELP. I wish I could explain it. This is making me sound stupid and unmotivated, but to defend the only time I have been focused the last two weeks was when I was directing/at rehearsal. But I need to fix everything else, so that I can go to college, focus and graduate and then I get to direct as a profession.

BUT FIRST I NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO FOCUS. This is frustrating. Well, now I need to go to rehearsal.

NCIS

My current obsession is NCIS which stands for Naval Criminal Investigative Service. It's a show a little like Bones. It's a forensic show, but the thing about it that I like is the characters. They are all very original and diverse people.

My favorite character is Abby. She is the goth forensic scientist, that is always happy. She is very good at her job, often finding things that others missed and is addicted to CafPow!s, a fictional caffeine drink. She has oodles of love for her coworkers, who she sees as her family.

I also like the leader of the team whose name is Leroy Jethro Gibbs. He seems to be a giant bastard and like he doesn't care about his team. However the truth is that he is very protective of his team, he would do anything for them. He would kill for them, just as he did for his country and his family. He has so much love and a passion for justice. He is a fantastic federal agent, but he doesn't like to follow the rules and is more likely to shoot you than to ask you questions. He is also addicted to caffeine, but he drinks sludge-like black coffee. He also builds boats by hand in his basement and was a Marine Gunnery Sargent.

Then there is Anthony DiNozzo. He is the Senior Field Agent or Gibbs' second in command. He is a movie buff and always joking. He considers himself to be a ladies' man and flirts with everything with two legs. Everything reminds him of a movie. He is often the comic relief and also, like Gibbs, has a huge passion for justice. Gibbs is his hero and whenever Gibbs isn't around Tony acts like him.

Then there is Caitlin Todd (Kate). She was a Secret Service Agent and when she resigned, Gibbs offered her a job at NCIS. She joined although she didn't know anything about investigation She had never worked a crime scene. However, she was very smart, a fast learner and a profiler. There is incredible chemistry between Tony and Kate, but she dies before anything happens between them.

Dr. Donald Mallard (Ducky) is the Medical Examiner for NCIS. He is British and is older. Ducky has been an ME for a very long time and has seen everything, so he talks about it, in great detail, constantly. He also has a tendency to talk to the deceased, but he is very capable.

Timothy McGee otherwise known as "Probie" or "McGeek," two things that Tony calls him. He is a computer geek who joins the team as a field agent in season two. He has a thing for Abby and they remain close, because they are both the geeks. McGee also is a writer and is writing books based on his time working with Gibbs and the rest of the team. He is prone to mistakes and Tony makes him do all the dirty work.

Ziva David replaces Kate in the team dynamic. She is a Mossad Officer, in fact is the daughter of the director of Mossad. She comes, because of Kate's death and ends up staying as a liason officer. She is Israeli and so has some trouble with American idioms and has some sexual tension of her own with Tony.

Jimmy Palmer is Ducky's assisstant. He actually replaces a previous assistant named Gerald. He is new to the Medical Examiner profession and is very strange. Tony calls him the autopsy gremlin. His character has a small infatuation with Abby, which often rubs McGee the wrong way.

Jenny Sheppard becomes Director of NCIS in season 3. She is a very smart woman and quite capable of handing Agent Gibbs and his crap. She often bends the rules for him. As time goes on, the audience finds that Director Sheppard was Gibbs partner a while ago and that he taught her everything she knows. They were also in a relationship and still have great fondness for one another.

Tobias Fornell is the FBI agent that NCIS works with. He is an old friend of Gibbs' and actually married Gibbs' second (read: third wife). He has a daughter of his own and is considered like Gibbs to be a bastard.

This show is very character driven, but also has the open and shut case, aspect. It is very entertaining and I recommend it. And I must be right, its the number 1 Drama on Television currently.

History and Math class

I sit in history and I don't want to be here. I know that education is a valuable thing, but I am done. I am no longer interested in busywork, in taking science classes and other classes that I am not interested in. I don't mind talking about history. In fact, I find Gorbachev and Reagan very interesting. I mean come on the "Evil Empire" I think Reagan might have some issues. But its all very interesting. I am spent at least a semester on the Cold War, which is not something that most high school students even get to do. The relations between Russia and the United States during that time period. We are talking about Poland and the American Catholic Polish now. We are also talking about Lech Walesa (the head of Solidarity) and his labor movement in the 80's. Its kind of interesting. I enjoy hearing about the Polish and their enclaves in America. I think it would be cool to know Polish or Swedish or something.

I am now in math. I hate math. It's not that I don't understand it, I just don't like learning it. It is very tedious and I have a hard time paying attention. The other thing is I have a tendency to learn things for the test and then forget them. With math this is a problem, because every unit builds on a previous one. My math teacher is a Latter-Day Saint and he can't get mad, so its kinda funny when we don't do what we're supposed to. He also tends to ignore us, so we do things like read and talk through this entire period. This class is so much like a stereotypical high school movie. It's like Mean Girls of something, we do nothing, or that's what it feels like. I have no focus in this class. I will go now, because we are supposed to be working on a warm up. Yay! *sarcasm*